While everyone else was making career plans, some of us were making suicide plans.
Because we didn't think we'd make it, we never bothered to plan our lives out. We didn't know what we wanted to major in in college, because we didn't think we'd survive to go. We didn't have a career plan, why bother when we're not gonna be around to finish high school?
Which leaves us now, surrounded by people who are focused on their plans, graduating college, going into their chosen careers, married, children, buying houses, etc. While we're still working whatever jobs we can get because we never bothered to plan a future we didn't think we'd see.
This can lead to us feeling worthless, or unfocused, or unmotivated, or just plain feeling like a loser. But we survived through far worse circumstances than they did. We were put at a disadvantage by our own mental health.
The fact that we have made it, and continue to survive, is extraordinary. And you ask most of those people who have had their whole lives planned out since they were 16, and they would have no clue what it's like to fight a losing battle with your own brain every day. The fact that we are here, and we've CHOSEN to be here, is incredible, and we deserve credit for that, even if we're not as far ahead in life as our peers seem to be.
I'm glad you're still here.
